The Summer vacation period is over, though technically the summer season isn't over til' the 22nd.
Summer vacation for me isn't really anything special anymore, since I've been a NEET for like the past 2 years. It's just like any season now, except it's the worst because it's hot as hell and there are insects flying around. Makes it very hard to do what I consider to be my only job in working on commissions and stuff, and just art in general..
Though I hate to say that due to many personal/family issues, this was also probably the WORST Summer I've ever had. I hate to bring negativity and bad vibes to all you guys here, but if Steven Universe has taught me anything it's that keeping this shit in is not good for me and it's okay to feel like shit, in order to better deal with it. I unfortunately don't think I should elaborate too much on this, but if you've read my other journals it's been ongoing for a while. I think I can say that it does involve the possibility of my parents separating. That's all I will say..
It is just a possibility, but I honestly thought it never would have to be. Again not gonna elaborate on why, but should this actually happen my life would change drastically, more so than it already did over the summer anyway.
I have gotten myself somewhat prepared for it, sorting out my finances, responsibilities and stuff. But it'll inevitably be very rough still. It's all very uncertain. As Dio from JJBA says, we just want peace of mind in our lives. And that's kind of hard to maintain it during these times for me. Honestly this summer was just very stressful, I want my folks to stay together, and I've been trying to talk things out with em, being more honest with em than I ever have with many heart to hearts and shit, but there's only so much I could do..
Nobody can predict what happens in life, but whatever happens I will try my best to make it through. It won't be easy, at all. But I am a 21 year old adult now. I must find my way sooner or later. With or without one of my parents.
Now that I got all that outta my system, I'm gonna go over some good stuff.
With Summer ending, things are gonna cool down. Which will make working on art stuff much much easier, as well as sleeping at night~
There's also an Overwatch free weekend coming, which is completely free to play online for PS4 owners even without PS Plus. I'm looking forward to that. I have also played as much of the recent Nioh Beta Demo as I could. It's really good, better than the Alpha for sure. I look forward to the final game, whenever that comes out.
Still have a ton of games I should go through on my backlog though ehehe. But that means I don't have to buy much in the near future, except of course Pokemon Sun or Pokemon Moon. And I'm just as hyped for it as you would expect. Only 2 more months left til release, oh boy!
I've also started collecting the remaining 2016 Bionicles. With the sudden announcement of the relatively new Bionicle G2 line's cancellation I kinda can't help myself. I had to get em all before they inevitably fade into obscurity like the original series did, six years ago. I also think I took this up also to get my mind off of all the bullshit I've been dealing with, which actually helps for the most part. Only a few more sets to go..
Of course on the art front I intend to get more work done with the heat going away, and my commissions are always open.
So yeah this was another journal to show what's up, I mainly wanted to tell you guys kinda what I've been going through, to hopefully have you all understand. But you know, 'it's okay it's okay it's okay'. No matter what happens I'll still be arting one way or another. Heck I recently got 400 followers on my tumblr art blog, which is awesome! (You'll still have to find it yourself, it actually isn't too hard at all)
I'll take this opportunity to say I've also been posting on my Instagram on a more daily basis. Check it out if you want.
Anyway for you guys returning to your studies I wish you guys luck. And I hope you all had a nice vacation too~
til' next time, sayonara pals
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